religion/politics/people

Visted some friends tonight. One of them passionately hates republicans. I agree with a lot of what he says, but you can't lump all people of one party together. He was telling his son that republicans don't care about people (or something to that affect) and praising the democrats for their social programs. Then we were lamenting the state of public schools and what the welfare system has done to people. I pointed out that the social programs that he loves are part of that problem. I'm not a republican or a democrat. I wasn't in the mood for a major debate so I let the subject drop.

Then we discussed church. I don't go to church, but I had agreed to play the piano for a Methodist church this morning. I was telling them how boring it was and how ridiculous the prayers were. He pulled out his program from the Episcopal church and showed me their prayers. (written in the bulletin) They pray for the "vicims of the social order'. He was so happy about that, but my question is "is that prayer being answer??" They told me about the ministiries their church has for soldiers, poor, etc. I said "But those are things that YOU are doing. What is GOD doing?" ?????????????????

middle schoolers

I've been substitute teaching at our local middle school this week. What a depressing experience. Aside from the fact that it's exasperating, it makes me extremely concerned about the future of our society. These kids are worse than animals. No respect for adults, each other, or themselves. They couldn't care less if they learn anything. How dare I ask (tell) them to get out a book or paper or pencil?! They are sloppy, and rude and unprepared (paper, pencils, etc.). I hardly even know how to describe it. The fact that my children have to go to school with these cretins is bad enough, but the thought that they are our future leaders, workers, parents, etc. just leaves me speechless.

random thoughts

Well, I haven't posted in a while. I saw some old friends in January. Let on a little about my bolt from religion. Mixed responses. Made some new friends. Two gay guys that have been together for 20 years. We were in a play together. I feel like I've known them a long, long time. Dropped a friend. She was totally undependable and our friendship was ridiculous. Still looking for some major purpose in life. The mom thing is certainly important, but I think I can do that and other things, too. I just don't seem to have enough focus or passion about one particular thing. I'm taking a class that will give me my teaching certificate back so maybe teaching is what I need to do. Just regular teaching. Not saving the world in some big way, just making a difference with the students in the classroom. (I realize this is full of sentence fragments--they're acceptable in blogs.)
Still thinking about my old boyfriend from high school (see previous post). I probably won't contact him, but I think about him enough that I haven't completely ruled it out.
Kind of want to go to church for the social part. I've had a couple of people asking me to go to their church recently and I like them and I've been tempted, but then my FFRF newspaper comes in the mail and I get a reality check. It can be very lonely believing something so different fromo SO many people. I have to be true to myself, though. People have certainly been through worse things.
Okay, enough rambling.